1fatgirlshrinking

I have been avoiding writing my blog because I have gained weight. Lots of weight. I’m eating all kinds of things I shouldn’t be eating; I’m not exercising and I know what I’m doing is bad. The shame of it.

I actually believe that I’m feeling really sorry for myself – again! I’m in pain pretty much 24/7 and I’m trying to get a pile of things done before knee replacement surgery on the 29th of this month. This is s long weekend and if I go out on the deck, it’s right next to the kitchen with all kinds of goodies in it. Blueberries with French vanilla yogurt sounds good doesn’t it? It is and a little more and a little more and…

So, now, by writing and posting this I’m hanging it out for all to see and this will motivate me to stay on my diet and do the things I’m supposed to do. Already I don’t feel hungry and it’s lunch time, not that waiting for a specific eating time ever stopped me before. But I am more aware. Self aware.

I am an emotional eater. My biggest problem is that I am a very emotional person and with every emotion – and there are hundreds – I eat. But I make the choices that go with my emotions. no one else does. I can’t blame anyone but myself. I have problems but it’s what I choose to do about them is what I am responsible for. And if you ask anyone who knows me they will tell you that I am a very responsible person. Ha! I’ve fooled them all!

Not really, I am a grown-up (chronologically) and can act like one. So I will. Back on the good food wagon. I’ll be making love to the veggies and fruit that fill my fridge.

Thanks for listening. ;D  Diane

~ by 1fatgirlshrinking - Diane Kirby on May 18, 2015.

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