It’s A Pain To Be Fat

ImageI have been fat most of my life and I wish I knew then what I know now. My fatness (I honestly don’t think this is a real word but it is definitely appropriate here) has either caused or worsened some of the things wrong with me.

When I was 15, I sprained my knees skiing. Maybe my weight had made me unwieldy on the turns but…I ended up with a torn cartilage in my right knee that was removed when I was 20 and now, the whole knee joint needs replacing. When I was 17, I sprained my right ankle, twice. Because we lived in a town (Inuvik, NWT) that had no sidewalks or paved roads, just boardwalks and dirt/mud, I was put in a series of badly made walking casts for 6 months. I believe these and many hours on those snowmobile seats helped start the deterioration of my hip joints. My weight made them worse.

Hernias, and caesarians have had me in stitches over the last 30 years. It’s a vicious circle where pain is a stress that I’ve tried to stop with a variety of comfort food that made me fatter or stopped the weight loss thus creating more stress and pain on my body and making me eat more.

Fat owl and beetsMy mind is as weak as my connective tissue and pain has not motivated me to lose weight. Even the emotional pain of bullying and prejudice hasn’t made me lose weight. It is my family that is motivating me now. I want to be around for a long while for them and me. I had a wonderful discussion with out Health and Wellness coordinator at work yesterday and the subject of green things as good-for-you foods came up. I don’t like many truly green things because they taste like – GREEN! She had made kale chips as an add-on for the salad bar at lunch and I had to admit that the olive oil and sea salt were nice on the toasted green but I draw the line at adding a handful of spinach to my smoothies. I have a difficult time wrapping my head around a wonderful yogurt, raspberry, pineapple smoothy that’s been greened by spinach. Oh well, I guess I’ll try it. I understand that it is not only is it good for you and helps with weight loss it can also help manage pain. I hope so. I’m tired of being fat and in pain. So… I will continue to work on not being fat. I hear beet juice is the best one for me. I could handle dark red smoothies.

That’s all for today. Thanks for listening.  ;D Diane

~ by 1fatgirlshrinking - Diane Kirby on February 21, 2014.

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