Afraid of Change?
Maybe I am afraid to be a normal weight. I would look so different, I would feel physically great and I have no idea what that would feel like. I honestly think I’m healthy. I can imagine what it would be like to walk into any normal clothing store and buy off the rack.
Change needs to happen. I need to allow myself to change for the good. I’ve become too used to needing help and attention. I’ve talked about sympathy and empathy before but I’m addicted to them. I feel for people and can relate it to things I’ve experienced myself or imagine what they are feeling and support them in what they may need. Sometimes what a person needs is silence and knowing you are there.
I’m starting a new week so I truly believe my attitude can change, too. But realistically my old patterns run pretty deep. It’s not just about food and exercise it’s about my brain and my future and I need a future. There is so much to look forward to.
Thanks for listening. ;D Diane
