My Self-Esteem

My self-esteem is bottoming out (Tee hee hee – I said bottoming!). I’ve never had great self-esteem but I feel like I’m going through puberty – AGAIN! I guess being a teacher in an adult school is kind of like being high school, again. Except this time I’m harder on myself than the other students. And…on the plus side, my acne has cleared up.body-esteem

Seriously, I’ve always had self-esteem issues and almost never see myself in the mirror the way the rest of the world does. I’ve been feeling old, fat and not so pretty. I KNOW it’s all about true beauty being inside not outside but….

Magazines, advertisements, TV, movies etc, all show us wonderfully beautiful, slim mature women. Well, hell, I’m not mature – I’m older. I know I can talk and walk myself out of this and I’m starting now. I will wear flattering clothes (Black is flattering, right?); wear make-up (Not too much, just enough to look healthy and cover the rosacea.); do something nice with my hair (a colour-matching headband?) and pick out some great jewelry (Pearls or diamonds? The choice is so hard.). I want to feel good about myself.

I have a great sense of humour. I listen really well. I know a lot and share my knowledge of it will help someone. (OK, sometimes I’m a know-it-all and blurt out the answers on Jeopardy, but that’s a good thing, right?) And I’m fun to be around. I have empathy and great intuition. I am woman, hear me roar!

OK, the real world. I am a very nice person and keep myself pretty nice. I’m starting a new program this afternoon and I believe it will help me change my eating habits. It’s called “Craving Change™ ” and I was referred to it by my weigh loss surgeon. I need a KITA (kick in the ass) every once in a while. I’m positive this will also help me adjust how I see myself.

So, as, I finish this up, I can feel my self-esteem rising. I am worth this. I have some pride in myself. Thanks for listening. ;D Diane

~ by 1fatgirlshrinking - Diane Kirby on May 31, 2013.

One Response to “My Self-Esteem”

  1. Sometimes we all need a KITA! And the way we view ourselves compared to the way people do is often distorted beyond belief. Good luck! And take care of you!

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