Mirror, Mirror On the Wall – Who The Hell Is That?


I passed a very large mirror in an upscale hotel the other day and looked over. I had to look twice to recognize myself. I’m at that age where, in my mind, I haven’t aged. At least I wasn’t wearing white eyeliner, extensions and a mini-skirt! But, as a woman with body dysmorphia to begin with, I’m having a very difficult time coming to terms with my age and look. I think most of us see ourselves differently than the rest of the world sees us.

I’m not talking about our inner-selves, just that first glance at the physical envelope of our selves. According to a study I read, (Don’t ask me details, I don’t remember them but I read it somewhere.) most people surveyed and observed either don’t recognize themselves in a fleeting glance in a mirror or see themselves in someway different that they do in a photo of themselves. I would like to read the whole study and see if it’s body image, age, gender or related to something else (alcohol?).

We are all aging and some get better looking and some of us just look differently. For example: most clothing stores have special lights and mirrors in their change rooms. They want you to see yourself in new clothes in the best way possible. We all know the salespeople are just trying to make the commission so we rely on our own judgement. And if your judgement is anything like mine – it’s not so good in the change room on a 50% off sale. I take one of my daughters with me when I’m seriously shopping for clothes. They’re honest (“Really! Mother!!!”) and it’s worth the price of lunch. 

I need a magnifying mirror now to put may make-up on and search for rogue eyebrow hairs. You know, the eyebrow hairs that have now decided your chin or upper lip would be a good place to migrate. I’ll put a wall mounted one on my Christmas list. But even then, I probably would only look at the little things in the mirror not my entire face.

I feel pretty good about myself. My clothes fit. I don’t have to draw my eyebrows on – yet. My grey is blending nicely with the blond and I like my smile. I still do double takes when I pass big plate glass windows and will probably do it forever.

Thanks for listening. ;D Diane

~ by 1fatgirlshrinking - Diane Kirby on November 26, 2012.

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