Losing It!

As you may have figured out by the name of my Blog – I have a weight problem.  I have been overweight most of my life and am only coming to REAL terms with it now.  I have tried almost every diet known to humanity (Except for that pre-digested protein stuff in the ’70s – Eeewwwww!).  I have never been to a “goal” weight.  My skinny jeans are size 18.  The last time I was a single digit size I was in an elementary school somewhere back east.

I have health issues.  I have had for years. I am on the edge of diabetes and that was responsible for my Mom’s death and I’m not going that way, too/either.  I have 2 artificial hips and numerous abdominal hernia repairs.  I have high blood pressure(controlled)  and “Jolly Person” syndrome.  Actually I invented the last one but I’m sure I have it!

I have been discriminated against because I’m obese – YES -OBESE, morbidly in fact! People have prejudged me, ridiculed me and been all around cruel.  I am not lazy.  I am not stupid.  I have enough self control not to hit the people who say I should have more self control and stop eating. Well, I say, “Stop breathing! Go ahead and try THAT and see how long YOU last!”  I feel a little bit better now.

I am doing something about it, again.  But things(my head and heart) are different now.  People have always been with me and for me.  My Family doctor really went out on limb for me and is wonderfully supportive.  I do not want to disappoint her.  She is fantastic!  My weight loss surgeon has invested so much in supporting and helping people like me that he gives my email to people so I can help them by telling them what I am going through.  He’s amazing.  My family is with me through the emergency rooms, recovery rooms and dressing rooms as I try on new and smaller clothes.

Inch by inch and step by step (sounds corny as Johnny Cake, doesn’t it?) I’m working on getting there.

More to come – words and weight.  Thanks for listening.

;D Diane

Weeping Woman - Picasso

~ by 1fatgirlshrinking - Diane Kirby on November 7, 2011.

One Response to “Losing It!”

  1. You don’t have to feel uncomfortable with yourself. You’re special in the way you are. People are concern about your health, but most of them are pointing you negatively. In my perspective, fat or skinny is just a physical appearance, personalities are the ultimate things here. You know what, even the skinny-er has health problems. My lecturer said this to me, “Just eat whatever you want, because at the end of the day you’ll get sick, no matter how you control your diet.” Take it positively dear 🙂

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